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Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy
This was several years ago. Maggie was 3 and Stephanie was 15. It was I have to say without a doubt, an amazing summer. We had so much fun, back then there was no Hezzie. Stephanie came for the summer have several years of not coming. Jimmy was elated and spirits were high. We went to the beach, camped outside, made s'mores and had fried bologna with our eggs at breakfast. We made bread, had Bible Study in our apartment....I did not want it to end. This was the last time we saw Stephanie. This was a picture I took because, I felt I may never have the same opportunity. This is Jimmy and his daughters...beautiful daughters. This picture makes me happy on so many levels. I look forward to the day when we may have another one.
Love and Memories
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Day 3: Your first love
Okay, so I was 18 and full of life. I thought I was in love with him. Looking back, I think it was pure lust. Okay, I know it was. He was older by four years, had dark hair and pale skin. His moon tan made me swoon. He wore skinny jeans before they were cool and Doc Martens that went almost to his knees. It could be 115* outside and he was still in black from head to toe. Not that we ever did much with the sun out. He played guitar and sang me songs, some that were about me. We had tons of fun the couple of months we had together. Lots of fun.
We would take moonlit walks and talk about crazy stuff. He would howl at full moons and kick rocks. I thought he was so bad ass. My mom thought he was weird. my brother thought he was crazy and they were both right. He lived with his mom, she was awesome and real. The closer the time it came for me to leave for boot camp the more erratic his behavior became. The awesomeness of his moods and brooding because stressful. He depression and "deep thoughts" not so endearing when I was the reason he wanted to die. Or as he said "lack of contact would just put him beyond the point of wanting to live."
I sometimes remember him when I smell burning sage or hear a Tangerine Dream song. He was so goth and I was so taken a back.
As fun as it was glad it is over.
Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name
Why this name, you ask? I changed my blog name to this because i found it fitting. I have a lot of love for people and life. Granted I do have my down times, and moments of complete and total frustration with people and life. But, mostly I have a big heart and big love.
The Domestic Hippie part is just that. I am a hippie at heart. I love being barefoot, nature, activism, growing my own food and what not. Domestic because, I am a domestic. No out of the home jobs for me. During the day I am home with my five kids, two dogs and two hens. I cook, clean, bake, sew and thrift shop. Maybe it should be the Secondhand Hippie....hmmm. No, I love my blogs name.
So I Love being a Domestic Hippie.
Love and Dandelions
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So Friday I had a rental car. I took three of the kids to Lowes with me. We were getting soil and a salvia plant. At a four way stop I was hit from behind. So glad my youngest was in a carseat, I mean he always is. We pulled into a parking lot and exchanged info. Oh lucky me when we were hit I peed myself a bit. Stopped at a store to use the bathroom and began gagging like I was gonna barf.
Well, I was okay just a bit sore for a couple days, now me and my oldest are having massive neck and shoulder pain. I want this over...and now....we need a new carseat! Britax carseats are not cheap. The insurance should cover that.
I am hoping it will all pass so I can be a normal human
Love and....
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The corner I live on is busy. I am literally on the main street in town and on it's busiest corner for foot traffic. Daily I see many street people. Some are homeless, some are addicts and some suffer from various mental conditions. In my "old" age I have become more soft to these types of people. In reality I have always been soft to the downtrodden and the lonely. When I was 19 I worked at an Indian Casino and made some good money for a single lady just out of the Marines. It was a good experience and time for me. A friend of mine and I used to take hamburgers to people with "Will work for food." signs. Once I put a guy up into a hotel. 19 seems so long ago.
Now I am married with five kids, and no monetary income of my own. But, in some ways I find a way to help. For a couple years we gave needy families money to finance their Christmases, gave food to families and individuals. We have also offered prayer and other things. Their are many skeptical people around and think everyone wants a handout. This is so not true.
One way I plan to give this year is through my garden. I was able last year to hand out various vegatables from my small garden. This year we have expanded it and I am hoping to do more. I know it seems silly that a couple ears of corn and some squash can change someones life, but you never know. I am also going to smile more at people. Everyone needs love, even if they don't think they do.
What will you do reach out?
"All they asked was that we should continue to remember the poor, the very thing I was eager to do." Galatians 2:10
Much Love and Garden Blessings,
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It has been some time since I have gone and worshiped my Creator in a church. I have not given up on my Creator and know He has not given up on me. It seems that church has become a social scene, and in some aspects I was even part of that crowd. Not fitting in with any certain clique a school. It reminded me in some aspects of high school. You know I was that girl who drifted from one group to another not entirely finding my place. People know of me and never really knew me. This is what church had become, and my focus was lost. There was the always inherent drama of how someones kids was more sinful than anothers, or how someone did said something, or did something so scandalous. This was not the social scene I was looking for nor needing. Behind the loving and kind words of our pastors lay some fellow church goers who were in ways representing the church opposite of what was being taught. To this day I am still not sure if the pastors even know.
I got mixed up into the drama of one a young girl. My family had been there for her to help her become who God had intended her to be. She had came out to people and was basically being shunned. This was so against was our Pastors had been preaching for years. This to me was quite heartbreaking. For as many years as I can remember I have always considered myself bisexual. No that does not mean I am out looking for something outside my marriage, but the truth of my feelings is it will always be there. For many years I thought I was going to hell because it was taught to me that it was the biggest form of sin.
As I grew older and studied and read my Bible. In my studies I became to believe it is not a sin, if you are not doing it unnaturally. Meaning people who do it just to do it, or to be cool (yes, they do exist). Just read about Johnathon and David, and their souls being tied together for eternity, I won’t go on about that. I have also learned that sin in the Biblical sense has no degree, our earthly laws do. So we see pedophilia worse than drug dealing, when in the Biblical sense, it’s the same. Sin is sin, but the one you don’t want is not believing and admitting what Christ has done for you. I believe that you can be a good gay Christian.
For months I have been worshipping at home, reading and studying more than I have done in some time. Letting God show me things and learning God is a God of Love. He is an amazing Creator and knows my heart. Granted I sometimes don’t like where my heart is but, I know it was created in such a way that I have no control. Faith gives me so much more than not having it. There was a time that I had no faith and let it fall to the wayside. So I know how it is on both ends.
When it comes down to it I hope I can find my way back into a fellowshipping situation. It would be wonderful. Just wish some people were Christ Followers vs. Sunday Christians.
Mt 22:36 “[Jesus], which is the great commandment in the law?” And he said to him, ’You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And a second is like it, You shall love your neighbor as yourself. On these two commandments depend all the law and the prophets.”
Love and Faith
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