Prompt: Beyond avoidance. What should you have done this year but didn't because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?)
One thing I should have done this year and have not done was visit my Grandma Carmen. She lives in a convalescent home and has all my life. I don't know much about her life before that but, do know how many memories I have of her in my life. I know she loves to laugh, crack jokes, eat good Mexican food and talk about her doctors who she find attractive. I know she does not care for her picture to be taken, but, will let you.
As she ages and becomes more dependant on her wheelchair she does not visit out of the home much. So, we see less of her. But, in reality there is no real excuse. You don't need a secret code to see her or come dressed in a uniform. She is just right there where she has always been. She is there probably wondering if we have all have forgotten about her and her contagious laughter.
I wish my scanner was hooked up and I had all my pictures our of storage. There are some of me when I was a toddler standing in front of her in her wheelchair. My mom and dad never were shy about taking me to see her. I grew up going into that home on many occasions and sitting and talking with her. Or just sitting as she watched TV or listened to music. I wish I had known her when she was younger, I wish I had more than one picture of her before she went into the home.
My grandma never did anything to push me away, so I don't know why I have not made time for her. It's not like she can get up and drive over here and see me. So I feel like a selfish brat for not going over the hill and saying hi, giving her a hug and letting her know I still love her. So before the end of the year I will go and see her...not sure how many more years she will have with us.
So go see your grandma's and grandpa's people.
Love and Grandmas,
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My grandparents have all passed away. I miss them. They were wonderful people. I like to hope that someday, if I am blessed enough to become a Grammy, I will be just like them.
Loving and sweet and huggable and yummy smelling and kind and wonderful! That is what I wish.
Beautiful post.
Posted by: Life with Kaishon | 12/22/2010 at 10:06 AM