i want to post but, i don't. there is too much on my mind right. i wonder if that is part of my uncertainty. i will have to wait it out and see. jimmy has two weeks off of work for depression and high blood pressure. i see the doctor tomorrow about my breast issue.
i don't know if i can think clearly and really would like to go to sleep. i took a long nap today. my mind wanders off. i remembering things that seem of no real value. some of the things on my mind:
at beaumont high school i always sat by the door, or near it.
at banning high school i always sat in the middle of class.
i wore a lot of plaid in high school
i like boys who wear plaid shirts and have glasses (thinking some of this is related to a teacher i had crush on)
i have flat feet and why is that bad
how come i never have told my doctor i get occasional numbness through out my body
i am off balance a lot and don't know why
i wish that i could travel more
will joaquin ever have a good digestive track
do my kids really love me
do my parents care about me
what if this is cancer and it's bad
have i tied all my loose ends
do i have any real friends beyond jimmy and jeremy
am i the reason maggie is moody
am i a good wife, lover, friend. mom....
have i made any good impact on anyone, should i even care
in my writing in vain
will i ever see my grandson
why do things happen this way
am i too hard
am i too soft
does god love me
why did god take my grandparents
do i smell
what is the reason for this all
.....
those are just a few things.
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