I know my last post must have me looking like a whiny brat. We have had some good times, some great times even. There was this one time when we had taken the kids to Temecula. We went to a BBQ house on a whim ate and hung out for awhile. I remember the waiter, he was amazing. Joaquin was still not talking really and screeched a lot and was always spilling stuff. We rarely ate out because, we always had bad vibes. But, this was no ordinary day. Joaquin did screech some and spilled quite a few drinks but, we were ok. We were happy and relaxed. We walked downtown to some shops, Jimmy bought a Raggedy Ann and Andy for Maggie and Waylon.
We ventured down some more to listen to some amazing bluegrass. Walked around some more and headed for the duck pond. The kids had an amazing time and so did we. We fed bread to the ducks and hung out. I know Jimmy didn't care to be there at first but, came to enjoy it.I know everyday of my life can not be like this. I know life has it's ups and downs. It is days like this I am looking back on, and am wondering if they will ever come to exist again.
Can we be a family who can go out and enjoy a day so amazing again. We have five kids now, and don't do many things. I like doing things and escaping the walls that surround me everyday. I like parks and hiking, I like beaches and mountains. I like camping and bike riding. I like roller skating and bowling. I know the kids would love these things as well, if we would just do them.
Like I said, lots to consider. Will I be well of on my own, hell no! Will the kids have amazing gadgets and stuff, not likely. But, it isn't about gadgets and things, it's about simple memories and not seeing mom and dad cry all the time.
Ducks and BBQ,
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