Why yes I am blogging again today. This is what happens when you think a lot and talk/text a lot. Although I am super excited that I have been losing weight, it's pretty scary. For many years I have been the fluffy girl upstairs, with all the weird kids and a husband who could be with someone more desirable. Yes, I have actually heard people say that. To think he thinks he is unattractive, please. I have been accustomed to being treated a certain way because I always wore dresses or skirts even though I can be hard to approach once you get to know me.
Now, I am slimming down and I feel great, but I also am leary. How will I be treated now? Will I change so much that I will not recognize myself, not just physically but all around. I know change is good for the most part. Change can be great,in fact I have changed my diet and that has been great. I change my underwear daily and that is awesome, keeps things in working order. I change the sheets so they don't get musty, I change the oil in the van so it lasts, so why am I so afraid of change for my whole self? Maybe because, I am afraid of my ownself at times. It really is completely ridiculous.
The past few months I have changed and come into my own as a woman of the ripe old age of 34. I am more comfortable with myself, and am even open to believing it when people say I am beautiful. So I need to really get over myself, really because it is self-centered and selfish. Whoa is me, I am so fat but am afraid of being skinny. That is just a bucket of shit in the backyard on a hot August day!
My changes are coming rapidly, a landslide so to speak. I am gonna ride the waves down hill and still come out standing. I got some amazing people on my side, and some wonderful kids I need to show, that changes are good and are a part of life. This is my season to blossom.
Well, that is all enjoy these video!
Get off your asses and get real with yourself....people who matter will still love you when you change to better yourself. Everyone else can go smoke a rotten tomato. I mean that in the best way possible.
Peace and No Chicken Grease,
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P.S. The girl Adelle in the first video is married to my friend Justin, whom I was in the Marines with. How awesome is that?!
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