I have had this wonderful implement of music almos a year. For some time I had just left the poor thing hanging on the wall. My creative spirit was crushed by a wave of skeptscism. We had multiple visits by CPS late last year and into spring this year. There was tension between Jimmy and myself during this time that carried over into this summer. In the back of my mind I was sure he hated me and at any moment he would leave me. All the while I was crumbling inside and lost more of myself. I thought to myself "Why pick up the uke? It's just another thing I will fail at."
There was always a list of songs I wanted to learn to play on it. This summer my creativity was sparked, and I began writing again and picked up the Uke (I have not forgotten about my mountain dulcimer). We have become reacquainted and even though it's not easy for a person with short fingers, I am giving her my best.
It is probably not a grand idea for a beginnger to try songs because they love them, but rather because they are easy. I have never sat in a box very well, so I am going the wrong route. My song I am learning is Sea of Love. It is a beautiful simple song. It conveys so much, and it is my heart song for Jimmy my husband. He is an amazing human being and despite all my flaws loves me. He was willing to set me free to find what I really wanted in life. It was him that told me that my heart is big and had not strayed. I have to say if I did not have him in my life as my companion I would not have survived these past few weeks.
Between my lover and my best friend, I have no wants in life. I am at peace that I was born to give love and accept love, now if I could play the ukulele how I love, I'd be in like Flynn.
Happy Saturday Ya'll
Love and Blessings,
P.S. I love playing my djemebe when I am solemn and when I am happy.