Well, I started my thyroid meds today.I really could have gone without doing so. I felt pretty good until lunch time. My mood was kind of bleh, and then it went to crap. I suddenly was tired and fell asleep. I woke up and the movie I had been watching had some kid cutting himself. Not that day to deal with any of those emotions.
I felt kind of bullied and cornered about taking the pills. Since my thyroid is not severely underact ive, I am sure diet change could help. Maybe I am being melodramatic, I don't know. So I have this damned headache all afternoon. Part of me wanted to stay home all evening under my blanket and sleep. I had promised Dexter I would take him to youth and had made plans to visit my best friend.
My headache was crap, my mood was crap and my evening turned to crap. I am sure I made people feel crappy because I felt crappy, and for that I feel even more like crap. The vist with my friend never happened and yes, I was a bit upset. But, these things happen in life...yet, I am an emotional whore and got upset. My blood sugar was low because, I had only eaten 1/2 a cup of macaroni and cheese today. Jimmy told me to get food, so I went to the crappiest subway known to man. Hard avocados, wilted and browned lettuce ugh, but I still paid for my food.
On my way home I got a response from a text that made me feel more crappy, because that person felt crappy. So I had some tears going for that and then some more because I started thinking about other things. Thinking about my 35 year old husband on blood pressure medicine, and how I must be killing him. How people can worry and ache over me and I am so not worth the crap on the floor of a public rest stops floor.
Can I have a do over? Please!
Crap! Do overs are for video games!
Crap and 1000 Sheet Rolls,
Interesting Fact about me: I like to buy eco-friendly toilet paper